A little bit of this and a little bit of that...

My nephew demanded that my next post be funny, but really I've got nothing. I avoid being home, I keep to myself when I am, so there's no big story to share. I'm done tracking someone else's nastiness. Now I'm focusing on me, my upcoming changes this year, and being super positive and open to everything my future has coming my way. Work, school, home, socializing, etc.


Ok first the few updates that I have then on to more serious matters...

Today is the first time Art showers (while I'm here) for months and months... not saying it's the first time he showered since that long ago - but I haven't witnessed it in months. I haven't been home most weekends. We'll give him the benefit of the doubt.

I took the following picture the day after my last post... this is what the dog's pee looked like. He decided to give him vitamin C chewables and cranberry extract to treat his bloody urine. If your son was peeing blood, would you give him vitamin C and cranberry extract to treat it? So... surprise surprise, it "got better" then came back - GASP - really??? And last night he says if it doesn't clear up he is gonna bring him in for a visit. Hmmm... now that he probably has a dead kidney floating around in his body because his infection went untreated... that's probably a good idea to bring him in for a visit.

Last night I finally saw the toothbrush on the charger... first time since he had said that Bart couldn't use it because it needed to be charged... since my last post. How long has it been since that brush has been used?

Now more talking, less venting:

Last night Art decided to ask me about dates I've been on, so we talked about that, and then my lack of dating life.  He said he might be ready to start dating soon, since he's officially divorced now.  I'm thinking "more power to that sad woman that has to deal with THAT..." 

But his talk helped me realize that I really don't get out much.  So it's time to change that.  I'm going to make a conscious effort to get out more so that I have the opportunity to meet new people.  I hope to meet good people through school.  But I guess in this point in my life it's hard because I want something meaningful, not something casual.  I want something with the potential for long term.  And I guess if a guy gets that vibe it might scare him... which means we're in different places in our lives and that's fine.  Art did make me realize there's nothing wrong with me wanting something long term, and that if a guy doesn't like it there's nothing wrong with that, that I'm just meeting the wrong people.  He said he doesn't get how someone that spends some time with me could possibly not want to be with me (unless he doesn't want long term) because I'm quite the catch: "funny, pretty, responsible, you have your act together"

... see what I mean when I say Art's a good guy?  Just not meant to be my roommate.  I think we'll continue to be friends after I move, and we'll still get the boys together, but I just can't live with him.  And there's nothing wrong with that either.  You can't live with everyone, just like not everyone I go out on a date with is going to work out, etc etc etc.  Last night was a good conversation. 

He also already knows I gave my 90 days notice, and he knows he is moving too.  He did try to talk me into staying and even offered to pay more, and of course I said I lived too far from things, I spent so much money on gas, I hated not sleeping in my own bed every night, blah blah blah.  See?  I can use my filter when I need to - you all think I'm all rotten.  All that I said was true, but I didn't tell him that I can't stand living with a dog and all the dog hair, with sticky toilet seats, with slimy bathtubs.  I did, however, say that I missed my own space and with school changes possibly coming up this year I didn't know what was going to happen with my income, etc and that I needed to get my boy into a more long term living situation, and we both knew this wasn't long term.

So we've been open about looking for apartments, talking about possibilities, prices, etc.  So having that freedom to speak openly is nice, and surprisingly we've both been in a good mood and talking a lot more, even about our day to day life - where before we barely talked anymore.

I'm looking at places and seeing some decent possibilities... except it's too soon to look because no landlord will take an apartment off the market for me and not have any rent paid for 3 months... but I figured next month will be a good month to start looking more seriously.  We'll see if there's still good stuff out there.

In the meantime...  86 days until April 30, 2012.  :)